Be Still?

Life can get unbearably hard sometimes. Trust me, I know. No matter where you move, no matter which new friends you get, life sadly still gets hard. I've come to realise that over this year. For some reason I would think that if I just moved to different places then my problems surely wouldn't follow me...but um, NEWS FLASH! They did.

Anyways, as I was saying, life can get unbearable, where it feels like it's just problem after problem, mountain after mountain. A never ending journey of downhills where you don't know if you going to land safely at the bottom or just keep tumbling down. In those moments it is very easy to get consumed with worry, with doubt, and most often... fear.

Quite recently I have had to face some of these unbearable moments where all you want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. Facing and quite frankly trying to run away from the storms that were wanting to consume me. Most often it would be the same storm of worry because I would be afraid of what the future might hold, and if I could possibly be strong enough for it. Maybe for some people it could be a storm of insecurities that never disappear, or it could be a storm of anxiety, a storm of loneliness. Nevertheless, we all face storms, sometimes they can be a bit bigger than the previous ones and other times they can be so puny that you don't even notice them. The big question though, is how to get through the storm. Now that's the difficult part.

The other day as I was sitting on my bed fretting about my future again ( it's nothing new really, ) I was reminded of the verse in Psalm 46 where it says ' Be still and know that I am God.' And it suddenly hit me that I am never supposed to be in control of the storms that I keep facing. because that's God's job, and quite frankly I was doing His job for Him. God never intended for us to be consumed by the storm, He intended for us to endure the storm, and most importantly... ( wait for it )

To endure the storm WITH Him.

My focus was never to be on the storm, it was always supposed to be on Jesus in the storm. I realised that God is a God who is faithful no matter what storms blow my way. I am beginning to realise that God is God, and I am me. Just me.

It's time to realise that our duty as His children is to trust Him, because He knows what He is doing.

I really hope that this blog update was relatable in some way or the other. I would love to hear your thoughts on this and hear what you think about enduring the troubles that we face every day.

Love,

Caity.