Is this relatable?

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​I don't know about you, but sometimes it feels like I can barely hear God at all, like He's not even there. And it gets me confused as heck, like what's going on? Surely I should be hearing Him, feeling Him?

I really don't understand these times, but I suppose that they are there for a reason, maybe to grow us, strengthen us... I don't know.

Over the last few weeks I really wanted God to speak to me, and it felt like the exact opposite was happening. I felt so distant from Him, I didn't know what to do. I could barely pick up my Bible because I knew that I was most probably not going to get anything out of it. I felt so lost and guilty. It made me doubt, and that's like the scariest place to be ( I think ). Doubting your faith, His existence, your relationship with Him. Everything.

I'm sure most of you are aware of Zim's situation. Lack of fuel, massive petrol queues, shortages of food, an increase of hyperinflation and so many other problems. And let me tell you, it is pretty scary living in this country at the moment. Who knows what could happen next. That keeps us on our toes for sure.

However, through all of this, I can see that God is still faithful, and I realised that God speaks to us constantly throughout the day, we just end up missing His voice. And I totally understand why, as it's really easy to get distracted and overwhelmed by certain circumstances around us. Yet it feels like when we complain about not hearing His voice, it's most likely that we haven't positioned ourselves to hear Him... if you know what I mean? At least this is what I found with me.

For example, I was sitting in a petrol queue with a friend for about 2 hours, with loads of people around us doing their own business, and I was completely oblivious to the opportunities that God had placed before me. Opportunities to spread His word, to pray for people, and I didn't even realise it until after I got home. This made me realise that if I changed my perspective on how I saw a situation, it could go a completely different way. Like I mean, how awesome?

If we position ourselves to hear Christ speak to us, then there's no doubt that He will. And this legit blew my mind.

However I would love to hear your thoughts and opinions on this, so please feel free to contact me. It would be awesome to hear from you.

Love, Caity.