A season.

Sometimes we go through seasons. Right now I'm pretty sure most people in Africa are going through the winter season which is blinking cold! Where as in Europe they having hectic heat waves which is very abnormal for them. Talk about global warming right?!

Anywho, I'm not here to talk about the different weather seasons. I'm here to share about something completely different, yet with the same relevance. Strange, I know.

As I was saying, sometimes we all go through different seasons, you can call it maybe the dry season, wet season, winter season, anything you wish really. These seasons aren't really referred to geographical seasons, but more of spiritual seasons if you get what I mean.

Quite recently for me, I was going through a dry season you could say, a hard season. A season of uncertainty, a season of loneliness, sadness, even depression maybe. And I was really struggling to accept it, to accept the truth that I was suffering, that I was lonely, that I was sad. I felt defeated and lost. And let me tell you I have never felt like that before, and it terrified me. I was so confused of why I was even going through this. Surely I shouldn't be sad. Yet it kept overwhelming me that I was feeling this way, I struggled to sleep, I struggled to function properly without breaking down every few seconds. It was horrible.

I realized from then that feeling this way slowed everything down. I didn't want to go anywhere, all I wanted to do was lie in bed and eat chocolate. Which as you know wasn't the best idea. It slowed down my quiet times, my fellowship with God. I felt empty.

I wanted attention from the wrong places, and honestly, I felt like I was living a fake life.

So trust me. I might have not understood before, but I understand now. It is still a constant struggle to fight this battle of letting my emotions over rule me.

The way you talk about yourself, to yourself,the words that come out of your mouth about you are some of the most important words that you need to pay close attention to. I didn't realize that the way that I was thinking and feeling affected the way I looked at myself, the way I felt about myself, the way I carried myself, affected the cells in my body.

What comes out of your mouth reveals who you truly are. I realized that I have more power over my life than anybody else does. We need to chose how we are going to feel. Speak God's words over your life and take back your control. Make a demand on heaven. Tell God how you are feeling, let Him give you your heart back.

You are beautiful.

You are smart.

You are funny.

You are always enough.

You are loved, and YOU are worth dying for.

Set the Godly woman that God has planted inside you free. The Godly woman that had the same power as Ruth, Esther, Martha, Mary. Take responsibility of who you are.

You, are awesome.